Below is an excerpt from The Tremble of Love: A Novel of the Baal Shem Tov, a book inspired by the life, love and teachings of a legendary and revolutionary rabbi, mystic, healer and teacher of Love. 

The High Holy Day of Yom Kippur starts tonight at sundown…  The day of Atonement aka At-One-Ment, is a culmination of deep self-inquiry and collective inquiry into responsibility, forgiveness, renewal, and one’s relationship to “God,” (or however you refer to this source).  Yom Kippur is also a portal into the new.

I share my wishes that you and our world know a great deepening of personal, national and global wisdom and peace.  

I also would like to share the following excerpt from The Tremble of Love: A Novel of the Baal Shem Tov.  You’ll find some context for the piece below, then listen to Ani read.  The text (from pages 322-324 of the novel) is below the recording.

Enter with me one of the grandest synagogues of its time in the Polish-Lithuanian Commonwealth in the 1700s.

We will be seeing the synagogue and its congregants through the eyes of Dalia, the daughter of Yisroel ben Eliezar, a controversial figure who later will become popularly known as the Baal Shem Tov, the Good Master of the Name.

Dalia is 12, she has grown up in a remote mountain village. She has prayed with her father and her mother in fields, on a riverbank, but has never been in a formal house of prayer. 

So, come now and let’s join Dalia and the others gathered in the Brody Shul. It’s Yom Kippur. 1736. 

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Irresistible prayer: an excerpt from The Tremble of Love: A Novel of the Baal Shem Tov.

Dalia wished she was close enough to get a good look at the golden brocaded letters on the Torah’s mantle and at the delicately filigreed vines that formed Her crowns. She hoped she would at least be able to hear the tiny bells, which she’d learned were often attached to the tops of the crowns and rang delicately when the Torah was carried among the congregants. Even though the Torah would not be carried among the women, maybe she would still hear the bells.

Some hours later in the service, Dalia watched her father climb slowly up the steps of the bimah in the center of the huge synagogue filled with Brody’s Jews. Every seat was taken. Men stood in the aisles and at the back of the room; their wives and daughters filled the balcony. If her father had known the size and grandeur of this synagogue, would he still have agreed to lead all these people in prayer? He had only conducted prayers with a handful of people, at most.

Dalia looked down at the platform upon which her father now stood, his large prayer shawl wrapped around him and draped over his head as he swayed from side to side. She heard the mounting fervor in his prayer. The entreaty in his voice stirred Dalia to tears.

When it grew long past sunset and the hour the service should have concluded, Dalia wondered if her uncle Gershon might be regretting his decision. Was it not well past the time for all to go home and break the fast with as much or as little as one had to eat? The sun had set nearly an hour earlier on the solemn fast day that had started at sundown the night before. Everyone, except for the old, the very young, and the sick had been standing for the past several hours, since the Ark had been opened. But still her father had not finished praying. The Shofar blast signifying the end of the holy day had not yet been sounded and the weary people had not yet been dismissed.

Dalia observed the congregants’ increasing impatience, their restless movements and glances, their sighs as they gazed at their timepieces. Some had begun to mumble discontentedly. At least, the mumbling made it less likely anyone would hear the growling in Dalia’s stomach. It was only her second full fast since she had crossed the threshold from girlhood.

Dalia knew that nothing her father did was unintentional. Surely he could feel the growing tension in the synagogue. But his head remained bowed. His impassioned and direct communication with the Ayn Sof had become more subdued.

Suddenly, a piercing whistle sounded. Dalia looked around, as did others, to find its source. A poorly dressed boy blew a second time on a small shepherd’s pipe. Dalia saw the old man next to him, perhaps his grandfather, try unsuccessfully to capture the whistle.

She had noticed the boy earlier. He had been reluctantly approaching the House of Prayer led by the old and tattered man; both were wearing sheepskin vests. Curious about the two, Dalia had searched from the balcony to find them. The old man held no prayer book; perhaps he could not read. Dalia had thought it curious to see him stay the child’s small hand with his heavy one whenever the boy reached into his pocket. The boy must have been seeking his whistle. Now, the weary shepherd tried unsuccessfully to wrest the small pipe from the boy. But in another swift, undeterred move, the boy blew into it with all the power he could summon.

Her father had straightened, pulled his prayer shawl back from his head, and turned to look at the boy. Refusing to yield the pipe, he sounded it again for the third time before restoring it to his pocket.

The silence that fell over the congregation amazed Dalia, given the restlessness just a moment earlier.

When the boy noticed Yisroel looking at him, he bowed his head and muttered something. Was it an apology? Dalia strained to hear him. Her abba asked the boy to speak so all could hear.

“I blew my whistle to tell Adonai how much I love Him, because I cannot read the words.”

Yisroel nodded, smiling broadly. He then proceeded to recite the last words of the closing prayer, lifted the Shofar, and sounded the final penetrating blast signaling the end of the holy day. Although all were hungry and had been so eager to leave, no one moved from his or her place. Transfixed, Dalia watched her father’s compassionate glance sweep through the House of Prayer.

“We pray each day,” Yisroel’s voice boomed. “And you shall love the Lord your God, with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your might. Just now, a pure sound issued with heart, soul, and all the might of this child has lifted the rest of our prayers. The young shepherd held nothing back, wanting only to give his love. We can learn from him how to pray. When we offer our loving gratitude without holding back—just as we are—our prayers become irresistible.”